DOOM DOOM DOOM DOOM

New year. New month. New day. It's really too bad that I cannot separate 2012 from the idea of doomsday. Ugh. I have such a good feeling about this year that goes completely against that idea. I have that nervous feeling in my stomach when I think about it (the year, not the end of the world) - like right before I go on stage and I know that I know my lines, but who knows what will happen? - and there is so many possibilities and corners and opportunities for triumph and failure that it makes my knees weak. So much can change in a year. I never imagined I would be here this time last year; this, right here, is a dream come true (believe it or not) in so many ways. God has blessed me abundantly, and I know it's only going to continue (whether I recognize it or not).

Resolutions? Not many. They're more 'heart' things than 'do' things. I would love to be a more generous, encouraging, uplifting person by this time next year; there should be a marked difference in my thoughts, words and actions. Of course there's always the desire to eat right and exercise, but I think, at this point at least, that my heart matters more.

Who You Are is not Where You've Been

2010: A Summary

J - School...and moving away from school.

F - School?

M - School.

A - School, freedom!

M - Wedding!

J - Roadtrip

J - Toronto

A - Toronto, Home

S - School

O - School?

N - Reading break!

D - Christmas!

In short, it was...quite a year. This is positivity, even when it is difficult. For more info, please see blogs January 1 through December 30/2010.

Next year will be better.

Karma, Zen, Bite Me

Just going through some old documents, found my New Year's Resolutions for 2010. Ironic time to find it, I guess.

In summation, I did gain 10 pounds...for awhile; I took up a bad habit, dropped it, picked it up briefly, dropped it, and am currently deciding if now is a good time again; I absolutely did not work out every day...possibly one day?; opened my Bible more than once...almost every day for six months; I for sure ate and drank "whatever the flip I wanted"; I did not fall in love forever and "forealziez"; and, I do not really feel better about myself.

Half is pretty darn good.

New Year's Resolutions for 2011:

1. Finally attain the perfect liquid line.
2. Have a job that lasts more than a month.
3. Buy a new car.
4. Stop eating and drinking whatever the flip I feel like.
5. Don't just open my Bible, really read it.
6. Stop putting pressure on myself to fall in love forever and forealziez.
7. Continue working on my dictionary (which, PS, is in the works).
8. Stay in school.

Wow, lots to accomplish in a year.

Oh! And if you still have not bought me a Christmas gift (which I am infinitely hurt by, btws), you could do wonderful things about number three.