Fearless

I feel like this is too soon for me to be having these feelings. Everything is moving so fast, but only in good ways. I didn't even know that healthy relationships existed anymore. So fast, and yet it doesn't feel wrong. And that's a little bit scary.

All my past experience tells me that when something feels good, I'm probably standing too close to the fire and am about to get burned (speaking of which, I smell like bonfire and beef jerky...wonderful). I'm so scared that he'll discover the "real me" and just leave because I'm not what he wants. So every time I find myself being vulnerable and just being who I am, I catch myself and sink back in because I'm scared of myself. But I don't want to be...for him I want to be fearless.

We have to keep reminding each other that this is only Day 3...well, now Day 4. What?! It feels like forever, which is probably what happens when you spend every possible moment together for months on end. And every day just keeps getting better.

I don't want to be one of those couples that always has to be together, or that already has their entire lives planned out together before they even know each other well enough to be sure it can work. So I'm fighting my urge to just be with him always, and continue with life. And it's amazingly easy. He weaves so perfectly through everything, and I don't know if I can ever pull that thread out without destroying the entire tapestry. Like I said...way too fast. And it's only Day 4.