I Think about It Over and Over Again

Things are slowly sinking in.

• I will not excel this semester the way I am used to.
• People think things about me that are unchangeable.
• Change will come. Slowly.
• Life will not turn out how I expected, and most likely not the way I want.

And then there are the other things. I have two bags and a suitcase full of make-up that do not see me the way God sees me. Sometimes I still believe a can of Pepsi will save my day. I have Facebook messages from years ago that I am afraid to delete. I have a Twenty in my Bible that still hasn't hit my heart.

Every day, I am still on the verge of losing myself all over again.