28.7.10

I'm all Out of Love, What Am I without You?




I'm not angry. I'm not bitter. I'm trapped.
If I go home: disobedience, failure.
If I stay: I fall apart.

I'm being left without a buffer.
Left without a confidante.
Left with more responsibility and less help.

I was right.
Today was a war zone.
It's not supposed to be, but that is what it has become.

And tonight...tonight I need to work through all of, of THIS, so that tomorrow I can smile and say the things I need to say and put on a brave face that says yesicanfacethisgivemeanychallengeandi'llrisetoit even though my Self keeps crying out to me youneedtoslowitdowntakeabreathsitdownforasecondandtakecareofyourselforyouwon'tmakeit.

I want want want so badly to go home.